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Best Thing In My Life

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens
Hi all,

I know I've been MIA. But sometimes you just need me time. Down time, so sorry. But happy 2012 everyone! This one is gonna be a good one! Something has been sitting on me about last year, and I wanted to share. Despite not being here much last year. it was a good year for me and I thought I'd mention some highlights...they'll put this year into perspective...

On 31st December 2010 at church a wrote a list of five things. Very specific, that I wanted to begin in my life. And as I get each of them I'll let you know on here. I prayed to God for them, and believed in him to answer my prayers.

One of the things I asked for was a permanent job by the end of 2011, paying a minimum of £30,000. Considering I was in my first job, post-masters, barely any experience, earning £21,000, in the middle of a recession, on a temporary contract, it seemed beyond far from where I was then. Plus I was due to be out of contract at the end of January 2011. The team was full, and my manager was advising me on where to apply for jobs at my level. Maybe earning slightly more. £24,000 including London weighting looked reasonable.

So following my prayer I started looking for jobs in the region of £27,000...ambitious for my level, but with London weighting of around £3,000, that would bump me up to £30,000...just about.

Then an AMAZING thing happened. Three positions opened up in my team. One at £21,000 and two at £32,000. My manager encouraged me to apply for the one at my level, I was doing well, practically in-post and pretty much guaranteed it.

I didn't apply for it. I applied for one of the £32,000 roles...and I got it. First choice candidate with the highest score in the interview and application. And I was expecting to get the job around December as I had put a time-cap on my very specific prayer...it came in MAY. Plus I get a travel allowance bonus. It's funny...I was scrapping around to JUST make the mark for what I had asked God for and he gave me just so much MORE!

Another prayer I prayed after having just broken up with my boyfriend was that I want to meet and know who my future husband would be by the end of the year. I started to date someone pretty soon in the new year who I had known since I was about 13...comfortable. He was nice, sweet, attentive and INTO ME. Like really. He seemed just so proud to be by my side. And he was God-fearing. PRAISE GOD.

But then something AWFUL happened...I just clean went off him. Like completely. For no apparent reason. And he tried everything, and he tried SO HARD, to keep it going. But it died. Just like that.

In the meantime I was still in contact with a couple of ex's (I must stress, this was NOT in any way other than as friends from a distance), including the one I broke up with in December 2010. One from a few years ago, who is in his early 30s starts talking about settling down. A few months later he's clear its me he wants to settle with and starts trying to make a play for me. Then someone else I was crushing on HARD in 2010 starts talking the settling down line...

But AMAZINGLY, I got back with this Ex from December 2010 (since blogging was SPARSE at the time, he has yet to be mentioned on here...). We didn't push our relationship. Or try to define it. After breaking up we went back to the basics of our friendship and it just seemed to grow from there. I never saw it coming. He just seemed to come out with it one day when we were talking, that he wants to be with me...and I just thought, yes. That was around April and we are STILL very happy together. Even more AMAZINGLY we both took it seriously, so much more than first time around. He is the first man to have ever been introduced to my family as my boyfriend and he has been very well received. And I have been invited to meet his family too...

And funnily enough, it has been easier this time. Which NEVER happens when you get back with an Ex. When we first got together I kind of saw him as a time filler. A nice guy but not the man of my dreams. I find it truly amazing that he seems to be everything I ever wanted. And not in the least who I expected him to be. I have never been happier.

THEN 30th December 2011, he PROPOSED. All of a sudden my mind flashes back to the prayer I made and I think 'Oh My Days, really?!'. Saying yes was the easiest thing I have ever done.

God gave me EVERYTHING last year, He is truly the best thing in my life. And all the good I have in my life can be traced right back to Him. 2011 was magical for me. And it looks set to continue.




I am TOTALLY psyched for 2012!!!!!


What did God do for you to psych you for 2012?
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G.H.E.T.T.O.U.T.

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens
If ANYONE still reads my blog, I should start by saying...I am awfully sorry that I have been so damn lazy. Please forgive me, even though I don't deserve it...love ya!

Now this is short sweet and breezy (kinna).

Named this G.H.E.T.T.O.U.T. after the following Changing Faces track that I've always loved.
This is how I felt finally after all the pain and hurt of my breakup in November 2009.

So leading on from that...a week or so ago I found out that the girl my ex cheated on me with and left me for has dumped his due to all his BMD (tr. Baby Mama Drama). When I was first told I kinna brushed it aside as unimportant.

But I've been thinking about it recently and I feel mildly ecstatic. Yes, I know its a bit of an oxymoron, but hey. That the best description I've got. Plus, I'm kinna talking to someone now, and I'm HAPPY in my life. So that makes it even better.

All of a sudden my heart doesn't shrivel into a prune at the idea of seeing him randomly. Yes, I've gained a few (or more) pounds since we split, and yes I'm not quite a millionaire yet (still working on it though), but I'm HAPPY. Even seeing him couldn't touch that!

So is it bad for me to glory in the fact that they split and at that to my lil' pile of happiness?
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Wait Til You See My Smile...

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens
As the year is drawing very swiftly to a close, I'm getting my usual post-Christmas blues. I'm very frustrated right now...tryna count my blessings and seeing few. BUT...

BUT...

BUT...I am healthy, I have travelled emotionally and spiritually...if not physically (*sigh*) from where I was this time last year and that is really something I am thankful for. It's amazing how much I tend to take little things like that for granted. I was so very ill last year and not employed in any meaningful way. Look at me now! I have a CV I can be proud of and I have my health. This time last year I was heartbroken and I didn't see anyway out. But look at me now! I'm collected and ready and I finally understand myself. That is a massive achievement for me. Honestly.

I can't lie, I do feel down. I feel like I am pretty far from the path I had planned out for myself. But if I had followed that path, I would still have some very poisonous people in my presence, I'd never have met some of the most amazing friends I've ever made and I'd have almost no stories to tell my (future) children!

Imagine--I've gained all of that in just one very short year and my gains have dried the tears of last year. Now my brow is no longer furrowed...and if my blessings continue in this way...just wait until 2011...oooooooooo-oooooooooooooo-oooooooooooo...!
...Wait til you see my smile!

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World Cup Fever!!!!!!

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens
Unless you are a hermit (get out more!) you could never pretend that you don't know that the biggest sporting event in the world is upon us: THE WORLD CUP!

I love football (Man United supporters can I get a whoop whoop!) and yesterday I nearly had a heart attack because the two teams I support for love ENGLAND and GHANA made it through to the last 16. WELL DONE BOYS! Especially Ghana, how many non-Ghanaians really believed that we could do that? The only African team to do so (so far...Ivory Coast still have a whisker of a chance)!

So I thought I'd share some of my fever with you with K'Naan's World Cup song...Waving Flag.


Yours,

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My Sister

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens

I know I have been pretty down on the blog and in the real world to the poor people who are my friends (love you guys!). And although all that stuff is still pretty depressing. I just wanted to use this post to give a big shout out to my supportive friends (My Sweet Potato, Sankofa, FASM, Dodgy Boy, Foneshop Boy, Ms. Design, Ms Lawyerlady, Afrocentric, Kayobi, etc..) who have helped keep me out of the pits of doom and gloom somewhat.

But even more than that this is a shout-out to my family: my Mum, my Sister and my Cuzzy. Because, honestly, without their support I'd be finished. Cuzzy is always at the end of the phone to listen to my crap and sympathise. Bless my Mum, she is sooo cute cuz she has a 'secret' prayer list which I peeped the other night. And even though there is so much strain on our family at the moment, can you believe my job hunt is at the top of her prayer list?

But most of all: This is to my sister. She called me the other day and I ended up in tears describing my job hunt. She listened and offered me advice. And she was just THERE for me, you know? I'm not usually the type to wax lyrical about my family and I know I take them for granted, God forgive me. But this just needs to be said...

I HAVE THE BEST SISTER IN THE WORLD AND I LOVE HER TO BITS!

It's been said before that we should always remember to count our blessings. And my sister is one of the biggest blessings out there. Indescribable, incomparable. I don't know what my life would be like without my big sis, I shudder to think. I know I wouldn't be half as great as I am today without her. We are so very different but I can tell her anything and everything and she will always be there for me. I don't have a best friend, and I don't need one because I have my sister.

Love you girl!
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Music: Musiq Soulchild

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens
In my summer jamming session that London's mini heatwave is producing, I keep playing tracks by the legend Musiq Souldchild.I'm having a Musiq party right about now! So just so you can share with me some of this sun through your computer screens, here are a few fav Musiq Soulchild summer jams (well at least the ones with actual videos!).
:D

Just Friends (Sunny) - Very apt, dontcha think?

Infatueighties (Also doubles as a sex song ;))

Girl Next Door

Teach Me

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Forever Friends

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens


We've grown up
And grown apart--
But you'll always be
In my heart!

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Dear YOU...

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens

For the first time in four years we actually spoke, REALLY spoke. For the first time in four years, your words were not like a slap in the face. For the first time in four years the conversation didn't end with me angry or in tears. It was a revelation; when you told me that I had hurt you. It wasn't soppy or cute, but one of those ones where you just kind of acknowledge that certain actions and words cut deeper than intended. I knew that, but I never thought you would say it. I actually had some insight into you. And I realised that I have missed you. Once upon a time, long long ago you were my friend, you were my rock, you were my confidant. It was like going back to the beginning, where we just spoke. There was no malice and no bitterness. You asked me things without an agenda and I answered almost freely. You gave me genuine advice and I detected no ulterior motives. If you ever read this, you'll know who you are. We were young and stupid and I'm sorry. Can we start over? I would really love to have my friend back.

Yours Sincerely,
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I Melted Inside

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens


We only met the other day,
But you really caught my imagination.
The way you talked and moved and laughed
Really caught my attention.
Then again to look at you--
Your not the usual type.
But after fun and frolics
And MOTD 2
We really got to talking.
It was so comfortable
And real
And unaffected.
When you held me close that day
And stared in my eyes
My insides got a little soft.
I have a confession to make
You thought I'd dosed off
When you kissed my forehead--
I had not.
And I heard every word you said
You said 'shit I really like you girl
much more than I thought
you really could be it'
And you thought I was asleep.
Not so.
I heard you loud and clear
And I melted inside.
*SIGH*

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100 Truths...

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens
Sankofa inspired me! Welcome to the wonderful world of....ME. Now you have two options, you can eat it...or throw it away...

1. Last drink→ Fanta Fruit Twist.

2. Last phone call→ Kenny

3. Last text message→ Micheline

4. Last song you listened to→ Goodbye Apathy - OneRepublic

5. Last time you cried→ Three weeks ago. Don't ask.



SIX HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice → Er, shamefully, yes!

7. Been cheated on?→ Ohhhhh yes!

8. Kissed someone?→ Course man

9. Lost someone special?→ Yep, my uncle. RIP Uncle Fo-sa!

10. Been depressed?→ Yes

11. Been drunk and threw up? → Yes actually, just the once.


LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. Yellow

13. Grey

14. Blue

15. Black



HAVE YOU:

16. Made new friends → Errrr, doesn't everyone?

17. Fallen out of love → Yep

18. Laughed until you cried → Hell yeah

19. Met someone who changed you → Yes, there have been many actually. That's just what happens with human interaction.

20. Found out who your true friends were → Hell yeah!

21. Found out someone was talking about you → People love to talk about people, especially those they do not know. Haters can hate, I can't stop you.

22. Kissed anyone on your friend's list → No, any takers? Lol.

23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life → I know 4 of my followers for real.

25. Do you have any pets → As a child, there was Sophie the dog and a few cats whose names have evaded me. Sorry yeh.

26. Do you want to change your name→ Nope, but when i get married I might, depending on how nice his name is, lol.

27. What did you do for your last birthday → I had a date, and a little restaurant get together.

28. What time did you wake up today → 8am

29. What were you doing at midnight last night → Disciplining my foster brother, *sigh*

30. Name something you CANNOT wait for → To find the job of my dreams!

31. Last time you saw your mother→ A few hours ago...house mates!

32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → I can be pretty rash, but I'm working on it:)

33. What are you listening to right now → X-Press 2 - Lazy ft. David Byrne

34. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → There were a couple in my 6th form...

35. What's getting on your nerves right now? → At this particular moment in time I am pretty cool. Yay!

36. Most visited webpage → Hmmmm, my gmail I think.

37. What's your name→ Oi oi! That's personal! Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens.

38. Nicknames→ Big head (My cousin is a prat!), tbh honest I pretty much hate nicknames...

39. Relationship Status → Single

40. Zodiac Sign ---> Aquarius


41. Male or female or transgendered→ Female


42. Primary----- Joseph Lancaster Primary School

43. Middle School → n/a

44. High school → St. Saviours & St. Olaves CE School

45. Hair color → 1B, lol

46. Long/medium/short → Well...growing out short hair, it's now mid-length but I'm wearing a long flowing weave....

47. Height → 5"7

48. Do you have a crush on someone? → Mmmm-hmmm, ooooo yeah! *wink*

49: What do you like about yourself? → Errrrrr...I'm a Brit. I hate these types of questions! Narcissistic any? *rolling eyes*

50. Piercings → Yep, I'm thinking of becoming addicted...

51. Tattoos → No, still contemplating...

52. Righty or lefty → Righty



FIRSTS :

53. First surgery --- Ummm? *shrugs*

54. First piercing → Ears

55. First best friend → Shola when we were at Jo Lancs!.

56. First sport you joined → Netball

57. First pet → Sophie

58. First vacation→ Germany

59. First concert → Mary J. Blige...or was it Whitney....*shrugs again*

60. First crush → Akwasi *blushes*



RIGHT NOW:

61. Eating → Not a thing.

62. Drinking..... Nothing, but thanks for the reminder. I'm thirsty, brb.

63. Already missing→ The sun, she had her hat on, but now she's gone away :(.

64. I'm about to → Complete a job application...oh JOY.

65. Listening to → K. K. Fosu - Number One

66. Thinking about → Getting some new contact lenses...this is ridiculous. I'm squinting. KMT.

67. Waiting for → My date tomorrow :D



YOUR FUTURE :

68. Want kids? → Yep, God said go forth and mutiply. I'm serious about THAT one! *wink*

69. Want to get married? → Yep.

70. Careers in mind → Public or social policy formulation.



WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

71. Lips or eyes → Oooooo, eyes...NO...lips...actually, must have at least one of the two (I know that is such a cop-out, but don't start).
72. Hugs or kisses → Hugs all the way, they never get old for me.

73. Shorter or taller → Taller, I'm not a fan of the vertically challenged. Soz.

74. Older or Younger → Older, tried younger recently (never again....)

75. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantic, I'll do spontaneous.

76. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms, how can you have a nice stomach and crappy arms? Ewwwwwwwwwww

77. Sensitive or loud → Loud, LOUD. LOUD.

78. Hook-up or relationship → Too old for hook ups man, c'mon....

79. Trouble maker or hesitant→ Looking to minimise the drama, so I wanna try a hesitant dude for once.



HAVE YOU EVER :

81. Drank hard liquor → Oh yes :D

82. Lost glasses/contacts → All the damn time.

83. kissed on 1st date – Yep.

84. Broken someone's heart → Apparently. He's suuuuuch a liar thou!

85. Had your own heart broken → Yep.

86. Been arrested → No, actually. I'm almost surprised.

87. Turned someone down → That's a constant if you are a black girl in south London. Guys out here are DETERMINED boi. 9 times out of 10 it's NOT a good look. In case your wondering...

88. Cried when someone died → Yep.

89. Liked a friend that of the same sex? →I know what your getting at although I could play dumb, but no.



DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

90. Yourself → It's a must...

91. Miracles → Yes I do.

92. Love at first sight → Errrrrr...NAH!

93. Heaven → Yep, yep.

94. Santa Clause → KMT, what do you think this is?

95. Kiss on the first date? → Kiss away!

96. Angels → Yep.



ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yesss...

98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → Don't do that mess, it's too much like hard work.

99. Wish you could change things in your past?→ Who doesn't?

100. Are you posting this as 100 Truths? → This is a pretty silly question...
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