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The Abyss

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens

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It's the worst thing when you trust him

and he betrays you.

Not in the actions you expect,

nothing like that.

But in a fundamental way;

A seemingly insignificant way

A way that seems infinitely more

of an impossible chasm.

A complete betrayal of everything

you ever thought you had.

Category: case of the ex, confusion, poem 0 comments

Ouch!

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens

You've been on my mind,

Your face is all I see.

But I know deep down inside,

That you don't think of me.

Inside me is a space

That I thought was made for you

But you then you back away

And punch me in my face...!

Category: confusion, pain, poem 2 comments

Forever Friends

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens

We've grown up

And grown apart--

But you'll always be

In my heart!

Category: friendship, growth, poem, warm fuzzy feeling 0 comments

I Melted Inside

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens

We only met the other day,

But you really caught my imagination.

The way you talked and moved and laughed

Really caught my attention.

Then again to look at you--

Your not the usual type.

But after fun and frolics

And MOTD 2

We really got to talking.

It was so comfortable

And real

And unaffected.

When you held me close that day

And stared in my eyes

My insides got a little soft.

I have a confession to make

You thought I'd dosed off

When you kissed my forehead--

I had not.

And I heard every word you said

You said 'shit I really like you girl

much more than I thought

you really could be it'

And you thought I was asleep.

Not so.

I heard you loud and clear

And I melted inside.

*SIGH*

Category: confusion, hope, poem, warm fuzzy feeling 3 comments

Still Dying; Soon Dead

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens

A rose by any other name is still a rose;

And dead by any other measure is still dead.
When I needed you you were still eyeing daisies,
And I haven't forgotten--
As I gaze at our dead petals on the floor.

I've seen you look back in wonder,
You've seen the shrivelled stalk
Of our once majestic rose.
You see but you don't perceive;
You read but you do not comprehend.

Roses that seem dead need tending
But look closely and you'll find a cutting.
A small memory or connection between us.
If you replant it
And tend it, it will grow.

Never a replacement--
But hardy, it will grow and remind us
Of the need to tend our friendship
That it's never really dead if you catch it in time.

But you're still caught up in daisies--
Forgetting they are weeds
That come and go.
That multiply when you are not looking
That respond to their own requirements.

They'll never give you what that rose did.
And I see you glancing at those petals again
Blowing in the wind.
A word of warning to the wise,
Do not let them blow away,
By then your cutting will be impossible
And the flower will be dead.

Category: foneshop boy, friendship, poem 3 comments

The Dead Flower of Friendship

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens

We stare at its beauty

Its lingering haunting essence;

It consumes us.

But then suddenly in what feels like a flash

There is a jarring movement--

And all that remains in the surrounding grass

Is a sad lone stalk.

This pitiful headless flower,

Which once resided, peacefully,

Beautifully,

Effortless in its grace;

A head of perfect petals

With a core which links them companionably

And emits a sweet fragrance

Which we trust.

A few minutes ago I stroked those petals

And smelt that familiar smell

As i marvelled at its apparently solid core

Then you pushed past and snatched it away

In your eagerness to cherish it

You pulled too tight

And headless, its beauty fades.

You crushed its pretty petals brutally

What was sweet is now cloying.

I watch aghast, tears streaming

While you gaze at a neighbouring flower.

A different flower;

A pretty little daisy.

So enraptured are you with the new;

Not realising that many of the same are around;

You do not even notice

The crushed petals of our friendship

In the dead rose on the floor.

Category: foneshop boy, friendship, poem 4 comments

I Just Don't Have The Words

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens

I compose stanzas in rhyme

I write verses of sweet prose

I sing lyrics of all genres

I recite and conjure poems

I pronounce decries like a queen

And think up complicated solioquies

But for some reason

I am never eloquent enough

To get you to understand

What my heart is screaming.

Category: case of the ex, pain, poem, relationships 0 comments

My Silence

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens

Here's some badly written poetry from my uni days....I'm feeling it today. Whaddya think?

It’s funny but I can’t even talk these days

All I do day by day is hide away

Inside I’m so withdrawn from things.

It’s the only way to stay safe from what life brings.

Something is broken deep down inside

Will it ever fix so I can fling my arms wide?

I want so badly to participate again

But if I’m hurt again will I recover from the pain?

Right now I feel like I’m barely able to breathe.

In this state mere tears is more than I can hope to achieve.

Am I weak Lord to feel like this,

When Jesus, the only righteous Lamb was betrayed with a kiss?

So is this my turn, my betrayal, from one I love?

To hurt me so true when I though he was the hand to my glove?

Or is it more like the trials of your servant Job,

His faith so strong the enemy though he tried couldn’t make him sob.

But am I failing because I weep within?

Is it the trials of faith or penance for sin?

I feel so low and unworthy before you,

Always you loved me but forever I couldn’t stay true.

I’m a failure Lord please forgive your child,

I’ve lost all urges I once had to be wild.

I pray that you’ll grant me your perfect peace,

So the pain will go; and the numbness cease.

By your side and in your will, I aim to depart never,

Because through you alone can I be a happy child forever.

I thank you for all you’ve done for me,

I’m so lucky that my Father you’ll always be!

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Category: faith, fear, pain, poem, relationships, uni 0 comments

Change Today

Posted by Nsoromma...Child of the Heavens

Here's a little something I wrote a couple years ago which is so relevant right now. I feel like my life was just at a cross roads but I've finally chosen a direction. Praise God!

Today, is the beginning of the rest of my life,

Today, is the day for change

No more wallowing in struggle and strife

My life I shall rearrange.

I’m not putting it off no more

TODAY! I shall begin

My ambition is not to be poor

I’ll be a wealthy woman within

To do this I need to fulfil myself

With deeper things than I do

I’m ready and willing and able to shelf

The silly things I go through